Stomach feeling slightly weird today. I think I've worried myself enough to give me stomach aches again. Oh well. I have such an emotionally sensitive stomach. hehe. (plus, having coffee on top of it all never helps! ha)

Random Note: BBQ chicken pizza from Domino's is great!

I've started turning the wheels of my vacation plans today! Had my bosses know that I plan to ditch them in about a week. lol. Nothing is set for sure, but I have some ideas what I want to do. But even if all I do is just stay where I am right now, I'd be happy.


Points of Interest for the day? Twin Peaks. Assassin's Creed Lineage Series. Alan Wake Prequel Shorts.

Btw, a friend I know has very unsupportive parents. It's a shame. She's a very good student, and deserves alot more than that... I hope she reads all the supportive comments that people left for her online.

Once again

...I did it! I wrote my letter and sent it in today. Woo!

I woke up feeling horrible in my stomach this morning. I didn't even know why! It took me a few minutes of staring at the ceiling before I figured out what was bothering me.

"Hmm... I finished signing my loans. That can't be it.
 I've talked to all the people I had to yesturday.
I haven't lied to anybody or did anything bad....

....oh! Send in that addendum to the committee."

It sucks that my mind was worrying about it all night even though I had forgotten about it for the meantime. I suppose it's my body's way of reminding me things that are extremely important. But I need my rest! I worry about stuff like that while I'm awake already.

I did eet!!

I finally signed that loan of dooooooooomage!   yey.

So now all I have to do is wait on the school. Hmmm... waiting is another excruciating challenge for me. But it'll be worth it if all works out!

Cross fingers for me internet!

Loan update

Nervous! Still haven't signed the darn loan thing. I know... yer thinking, "well just do it already!" and I will! I actually got alot done today. Talked to people that I needed to deal with for business reasons. I tell ya, I've been anxious about it all weekend. My dreams have been getting kookier and kookier. Thankfully, I don't remember what they were about, but it sucks waking up to it and feeling troubled. Once school starts, I should be done with all this. All having to do with money ofcourse. Going to college is such a rough lesson in real world money management.

I promise myself I will sign today.

But I lost a really good friend to loan/money issues. She is a really great and passionate Graphic Designer.

Housing arrangements will remain to be seen by Friday, hopefully.

[...Just got distracted for about 30 mins...]

Ok, I'm back! uh.... In conclusion....

I know I can hang in there! It's a scary step in life, but I will keep pushing to stay on top of it all! And I have no better source of inspiration and strength than my sweetie ♥

Costumes and Memories, oh my!

So looks like I won't be getting that pell grant this year, but I'm not too worried yet.

So I've just finished watching all Anime Expo 2010 clips of the masquerade. More accurately, I watched only the awarded skits. hehe. Reminds me of when I used to just watch convention skits for fun and then for inspiration. On that fateful summer of 2007, I actually went up on stage myself. Fun fun times.

Heres a video too of it! Embarassing to look back on it. I could never watch a performance of myself. But it was damn fun DOING it!

Note my glowy-ness!

And.... I'm pretty sure I wanna make this soon. TAKOYAKI! Yum!

I miss my best friend, Stephanie! We did such awesome artness and costumeness! (I miss my other best friend Krystal too!)

Sorry for the random posting. Not feeling quite myself, but this is helping me I'm sure.

It's that time of year again...!

Scrounge for money and loans!

Already hit my first patch of rough dirt in the financial process, but it should be taken care of by today, hopefully. And Trouble is not to far from my friends either. I hope we all make it thru this college tradition/obstacle of "Who will survive [financially] for another year?" In more than one way, they were right when they said to us on our freshmen orientation, "Look to the left, look to the right, one of them won't be here by your senior year."

What an adventure, huh?

On a good note- I inactively sold a painting of mine. It was actually a painting I disliked, but apparently someone out there liked it enough to buy it right of my dorm hallway. Cool! I feel like I should do more painting now. hehe. And as cool as digital work is, I think unless you are targeting and/or selling online in specific communities or at a convention, traditional paintings sell alot better anywhere.

And I don't know how most people feel, but the almost inevitable feeling of doom kinda makes you wanna work harder when you survive it. I guess thats a well known reaction to close call things like that, but I've definitely already had my share of it. Enough to think how fortunate I would be to continue another year. And to think I will have 2 more summers like this after this year! 2 more times I will have to worry whether I will have another year Ringling under my belt. As far as budgets within my control, I am doing pretty good! First time I've ever had to pay rent consistently and buy a car while I'm at it, I would say I'm managing very well. I've adapted to this whole working/paying thing. lol. Living life happily with my sweetie too!

Just need to get this loans business taken care of. But giving up is definitely not an option. There will be other solutions, and I will work at those until I've exhausted all I can, and move on to another possible solution.

Anyways, yey college. I can't wait to look back on these blog entries, and say to myself, "Yeahhh, I remember that."

:)